I had a dream where I was exorcized and I didn't even know there was a demon in me.

I'm not really sure how I'm feeling lately besides burnt out. All I want to do is go to the gym and be healthy right now and sleep.

I really miss Joe but I think all is lost. He's the only person I can have sex with and not feel like a piece of meat, but at the same time I wish he'd see me that way so he'd still have sex with me. But he just doesn't want to get involved.
Sometimes I wish he'd change the drawing I did of him for his facebook profile picture. It's silly of me. But I'm still happy it's there.

Sigh. I can really just start dating whoever but I have no desire to. Even after having a couple encounters post-breakup, instead of making me feel more distant towards him, they just make me appreciate him more.

Staying awake too long makes me want to smoke.
Thinking about things like this makes me want to smoke.

Look at how wishy washy my posts are!