The future

...is here in about a week. Isn't it weird how you can specifically pinpoint a new era in your life? You KNOW it's coming. You KNOW that you're going to change somehow. You know what awaits you exactly... yet it's still all so unpredictable.

It's fucking off the wall.

I'm ready, I think. I still really like the guy from my old work... a lot... but he hasn't called me back a second time. It's like there was no real goodbye. It makes me really sad. But not to sound callous, I'll get over it. I always do. Maybe it's better this way.

I'll never know. I never known.

I just finished Eclipse. I admit, it is a bit addicting, but there were times where I was so disgusted with it that I HAD to put it away. Jesus christ. What is so attractive with making out with a cold stone-like body? I don't even know why Bella even loves Edward. She's always like, "OMG CAUSE HEZ SO SELFLES, RITE?" And I'm always like, "Shut the fuck up Bella, he's a fucking control freak."

At least in my head I'm like that.

But anyways, I've come to the conclusion that Jacob is infinitely better. His personality, the fact that he's human and warm and all that, and he's a werewolf. I mean really. And he's Native American. He lets Bella make her own choices, and he's all charismatic about it. Edward's too persuasive to let Bella seriously make her own choices. It might seem like he's letting her, but he has all these guilt trips and whiny attitudes and ugh. I'm done here. I think you see my point.

Homn. If I had to be a vampire or werewolf, I'd pick werewolf. I love dogs. They're great.

I've drawn shit recently to kind of ease my way back into the groove. Just sketches, of course. But I need to really get pumped for art schooooool. IN 4 YEARS I WILL BE A PROFESSIONAL ILLUSTRATOR. Mi dreem kum troo.