All right so. Human heart was too difficult so I did some really weird volcano lip things.
And I'm feeling really weird right now.
And I just got done 7 hours of painting, which was intense. My basement's really cold, but the phone with Natalia and Derrick kept me warm. It goes burning hot after a while. I almost burned myself a few times while painting.

My view of things is warped. I am a big hypocrite about a few things. And I take others for granted. I desire things I mostly can't have and don't desire things that I can. And once I have them I usually don't want them anymore. Which seems pretty screwed up in my own opinion.


P.S. There's a huge cat stalking my backyard and it's really scary. It walked by my basement window and I had some sort of heart spasm.