I'm really upset.
I can't stop freaking out and being crazy. I just want all of my thoughts to stop, and shove all of my emotions tight away.
I don't trust guys at all anymore.
I finally broke up with Joe. Or maybe he moreso broke up with me by not having sex with me for a month because he thought it meant too much to me. Because I cared too much about him and he just didn't care.
This is where I start crying, again.
This sort of happened between yesterday and today.
Meanwhile this ending happens, I get sexually violated gang up style by 2 guys my own age. It was really messed up. Apologies happened, but I feel like I'm going to vomit when I think of having any relationships or random hookups or anything.

No man cares! No man gives a damn.

At least not about crazy ole Kate.
I hate myself so much it hurts. I'm a fat piece of meat who will amount to nothing because of all the debt that awaits me.

I'm so sick of being me.