If this guy doesn't call me back or talk to me or pick up his phone or ANYTHING by fucking Wednesday, then fuck it. I'm not going to waste my energies being upset. It hurts my heart physically. Everyone else is practically dead, he'll just join the heap of corpses. It really sucks having an era end and having no friends to show for it.

Of all the people, I hoped he was sincere. Fuck it.

Edit: When I say 'heap of corpses' and 'everyone's dead', that's what it feels like. All the people from Chang's-- I'll never see them again except for when I pick up my next paycheck or MAYBE the occasional visit if I ever visit there; otherwise it is as if they have died. Completely cut off from me. Except Kyle and Pasquale because they were my friends before all of this nonsense.