I find this funny.
Someone I consider as one of my best friends doesn't even have the decency to call me after it's been a month or more after she ditched me to go to a spur of the moment Phillies game with another one of her friends that she sees every day. Yeah, I know I had homework to get done. She said she'd still come by though. I was really happy and excited and because I wasn't finished her birthday present, I took time away from doing my homework to finish it. And that's when she said she wasn't coming and then she said we'd reschedule. I stopped working on her gift. The reschedule never happened.
Hahahaha. Wait, no. That's not funny at all.
I understand that she has her own problems (really, I do) and whatnot, but jesus christ. If she really cared about hanging out with me, she'd take a few minutes out of her day and call me up, right?
Why do I always have to call her? Seriously, ALWAYS.

I'm really upset about this. She can call everyone else but me. Has she outgrown me or something? Is it because I don't drink? Is it because I don't live close-by? She has a car, I have a car, jesus fucking christ.

I hate one-sided friendships. I'm gonna call her tomorrow and talk to her about it. I'm starting to wonder if she's really my friend anymore. I might sound bitter, but it really isn't my whole responsibility.

I just want to know what's going on. If she doesn't want to hang out anymore, all right. I want to know straight up so that I'm not wasting my time. I want to be her friend... but I'm not going to put in any more effort if she doesn't want to be a friend back.

I'm tired of trying to act cool anymore.

I'm tired in general. Of many things. I'm tired for some sleeping.